my friend matthew

I feel like Donnie and if I didn't exist everyone would be happy. I'm just a walking ball of drama and negativity. So sometimes you just have to accept the fact that people don't like you and in all probability, they hate you. So you endure the pain in life until you can someday know, not fear but know, that you're going to die. -Tyler

If there wasn't so much drama in my life, I would probably be able to make a decent post. But since there is, I'll have to make bad ones. I feel pretty crappy because of it, but beside that, I feel happy. I just wish I had the sense and knowledge of how to end it, or block it out.

Wow, I hate water polo. But this weekend ended up being pretty darn fun. I hung out with Josh A. and Phil the whole time. We played 5 games and lost like 4 of them. Coach tries to use games as learning experiences, so he'll pull a player out right in the middle of play and yell at them. I dunno, you guys don't want to hear about polo. On the other hand, it seems as though people still control and manipulate me and I think I'm gonna need to end that.... Starting..... Now.

THIS IS JOSHUA PERRY'S WEB SITE! (< replaces something posted earlier) I'm about to leave for Anaheim or someplace for a water polo tournament. I'm riding up with Phil Castner's family, it should be fun. Josh Akens will be there as well. So I'm just sayin that I won't be back until Sunday, like anyone cares, but I probably won't blog until then. So have a great weekend everyone! P.S. - I burned Coldplay and Jack Johnson to a MiniDisc for this fantastic journey. Sorry... One more thing, this will crack you up, it's a blog from like a year ago: 2002/08/01Archive

amanda...... To be more definitive, Amanda wanted to be in my blogger: "how come im not in your log?" So now she is. (smile)

Real people are the best kind to spend your time with. They make everything so much more special. I'm having a huge realization, and I love it!

When all is said and done, it's a pretty sad time in the Thousand Acre Wood. It's completely over now, with all on me. I understand how this will help others cope with change (the only constant). Experience means a lot, whether it's good, bad, sad or glad. We learn from our bad experiences and appreciate the good ones. At least most of us do. Well, off we go, into the wild blue yonder. Ready for new experiences and maybe even some old ones.

This was a blank post day so I went crazy and posted blank.

Each morning, I walk out that door and hurry down those steps. I then turn a few corners and push through a few people. When I get to my destination, I pick my head up and see the Sun, looking right back at me. Her light comes right out of her eyes and seeps through her smiling lips. Every day, I become completely blinded of all the people around me. Her voice and laugh float around and around my head. I feel her warmth on my face and am reminded that my happiness comes from her, my morning Sun.

The mistakes I made in the past are in the past.

I'm off to the 'Psych K' workshop at this Christian Science church downtown. I don't want to go, it's 8 hours long today and tomorrow. My mom is making me do it and I'm totally bummed. I just wanna sit around sometimes. Today and tomorrow are the only 2 two days I've had in a while where I don't have summer school or water polo going on. I want just 2 days of sitting on my butt. Too bad Joshua, you have to go listen to this guy ramble on about self improvement and self healing. It may be worth it, but if it was my choice, I wouldn't go.

Dorie the Dork... Yep, that's all I have to say.

It's early, I know. My mother woke me up at 5:45 and announced that pancakes were ready, as if we have them every morning. We don't, so this was a special occasion. I hobbled into the kitchen to join my younger brother and sister at the table. My mother shuffled over and set down a plate with a stack of steaming pancakes on it. They we're wonderful, especially compared to the canned protein shake I'm frequently subjected to on these early mornings. I imagine I'll drink one anyhow. My mother loves us, and I love my mother. I'm simply documenting this as an “aide memoire” to others, but mostly as a reminder to myself. All right, well... I guess... "I'm Chevy Chase, and you're not!"

Yay, water polo was freaking hard tonight. I got elbowed in the nose and thought it was broken, or at least bleeding. It wasn't. But I'm ok anyway because someone special was there to give me support. Haha, who am I kidding?!

I'm so glad that there are some people out there who really care about others.

I'm going to make a shirt with these words on it: "I still have my V-Card, so don't even think that you have a chance with me unless you have one too!" It's pretty straightforeward and may sound really rude to somepeople, but those are my standards, it's my life, right?

Happy Birthday to Dorie the Dork!

Oh man, I really am addicted to movies though. Whenever I'm alone, I become depressed, there's nothing to do so I watch a movie. That's the leading cause of drug addiction, the fact that the first time they try the drug it was cuz there was nothing else to do. So here I go, I'm an addict. I'm not ready to give up my movies, not yet, I'll do it tomorrow, or tuesday, yeah tuesday sounds real good. I'll do it then, I promise.

I wonder who actually checks this site anymore. So I'm taking a poll. If you are one who still visits my site, please write to:
Joshua Perry
3033 S. Bridge St.
Visalia, CA 93277
Oh, wait... Never mind. I already know what the results will be. I think I should just stop posting my random crap up here, and get on with my life. If you think so too, please write to:
Joshua Perry
3033 S. Bridge St.
Visalia, CA 93277
Oh, wait... Never mind...

Dorie let me borrow a few movies produced by The Who. We watched almost all of Tommy. I just really respect the fact that Dorie is interested in something so golden. I dunno the point of this blog. Haha, whatever.

Dude, it's so much fun having "coach" as my English teacher. I bet he gets real tired of seeing my face for close to 8 hours a day, but I'm lovin' it. He's completely different in the class room compared to at the pool. He doesn't yell like he does at practice, so I get to see his softer side which is awesome. Uh oh, here it comes! SHOUT OUT to my new friends Dorie and Rach!

"Forget that," is what he said.

DUDE james is coming to come get me, i'm excited

"It was magic at first,
to see them speak without sound"
Jack Johnson