my friend matthew
theme: once upon a time i was young and confused
Sunday, November 30, 2003
I love it when you're writing an insanely bitter and lonely text message to your girlfriend cuz she's never around, when all of a sudden, she calls the very phone you're about to send your message from. Then she sweet talks you back your old submissively committed self, and that lasts for like a day or so until the whole process starts over.
But seriously, it's happened a few times.
Or those times you know you shouldn't really say something but you write the Email or Text Message anyway, then get to the point where you're supposed to press SEND, then don't and close the window. It really helps and saves a lot of drama. I call it the Balk Message. It works with anyone you may have a bitter but hesitant attitude toward.
Snowboarding rocks but being lonely sucks.
Saturday, November 29, 2003
I spent my last hunk of money on (dum da da dum!!!) Burton SABBATHS!!! The most beautiful boot in the history of boots baby. I may now be a poor man, but I'm a happy poor man... :) BIG SMILES Y'ALL
The Iron Giant marrathon, YEAH!!!
Friday, November 28, 2003
The husband and wife invited The Beast and I to come out and take part in their family portraits like a week ago. Clay manned the whole thing and we ended up taking, what looked like, some very nice group pictures of the four of us. I can't wait to get a copy of it for when I do, it's going up on Matthew right away. SHOP AT MEE STORE OK?
So I saw my baby this morning which was wonderful by the way, then she has to run again for soccer. KG you make me hate soccer. I wish you only had one soccer team. You're soooo busy!!!
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
Yay, she's home. It feels so weird when you're deprived of something for so long, given a little taste, just to have it (them) taken away again. My cousins are here and they're so fun! More fun than I remember. Anyway, have a happy Thanksgiving everyone. Eat lots of turkey, and vegetarians suck. What's the point of eating no meat anyway? I think it's another one of those image things I'm soon planning to forget. Black clothing = no meat.
I miss her so much.
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
I almost forgot, I got my SAT scores back: I got a 1200 baby! Compared to the 1120 I had before, YAY!
Today's a good day eh? My cousin's are coming tomorrow but I wish they'd come Thursday for KG is coming home tomorrow as well. Don't get me wrong, I can't wait to see them but I miss the Beast.
Took choir pictures today and it was awesome, not! I didn't have a partner. I'm lame. Matt had two partners, he's cool.
THE FAMOUS JELLY BEAN FACTOR - It's colder in V-Town than it is up at the mountain. It's 30 degrees here and 33 up there, what a crazy thing!
It is so cold outside right now. I went out there because I heard the trash man coming and it's my job to put the trash out. I ran out there barefoot with no shirt on and the thrash cans were even frozen over. Wow, I bet snow's holding pretty well up at the Summit. I can't wait to go. I think we're going to the beach this weekend so snowboarding's out.
Monday, November 24, 2003
Go get an album at Yahoo. It's fast and easy! LOL I just put a bunch of our beach trip photos up there. Check them out.
*sang like Pearl Jam*
Oh where oh where can my KG be?
She went to Scicon, without me.
She's goin' on Skytrail so she better be good,
Or her kids will get 3 stirkes and be kicked oooout of Scicon.
Sunday, November 23, 2003
My keyboard lights up, yeah! This weekend was awesome. Stuff KG and I did this: Drive around aimlessly last night for like 3 hours, scare Carlee Ann and Matthew, play "find the weirdest thing at Walgreen's", and we went to church today. This weekend was one of the first we really did stuff on our own, but it was good. Weird but good. Daniel, your poem was awesome buddy. Have fun at Scicon KEG and CAB.
Friday, November 21, 2003
Sorry, I was just really proud of that. LOL. Don't I look GLORIOUS? (say it like Frank the Tank from Old School)
It's a new day and the sun hasn't even come up. I'm thinking of what I could do to prepare and there is nothing. Everything's in order, everything's pretty close to perfect. It seems like everyone's really happy lately and that makes me happy.
I feel like going on a road trip just so I can listen to Wigfield all the way through because if I were to sit down in my room and listen to it, I'd get distracted.
I hope everyone has a good day today, I hope everyone is as happy as I am right now. I think this is the happiest I've ever been in my life.
Thursday, November 20, 2003
That was awesome. Thanks for taking me KG. I really had a lot of fun tonight. All the bands had something different to offer. Bree was amazing.
Going to a concert at LJ tonight. Should be fun. MY old old buddies Joey and Ross are playing together. I hope it's cold tonight.
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
1 is the loneliest number. I'm soooo lonely. The world is so busy while Joshua is so calm. I'm in stand-by mode, waiting for others to slow down. No one ever does though. I think people get a certain subconcious pleasure from having a busy schedule. I don't, I love those days you can just sit around with your friends and have no worries of time. No one's concerned about when they have to leave or go somewhere. When everyone REALLY focuses on the joy of being together. Those are rare times.
It's hard to sit at home while you know the one you want to be with just wants to be alone.
Ok, so who wants to be in a play?
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
OH MAN!!! There is this old recording of NPR's show This American Life. Soooo funny. Ira Glass just sits there for like an hour with a bunch of authors making fun of the word "Wacky" and how overused it is.
I would really like to get a group of kids together to perform something out of The Book of Liz. This collection of short plays that Amy and David wrote and performed together before they were both famous. They are soooo funny.
Bad days are just as contagious as yawns.
I got Wigfieldtoday in the mail. This book written by Amy Sedaris, Stephen Colbert, and Dinello... Those guys from Strangers with Candy. So I made Clay listen to some of the preface. I think he'd like it if he wasn't so tired from work. I can't wait to listen to it with the Beast!
Monday, November 17, 2003
I've made a lot of mistakes but I would say that I'm now more pure than I've ever been.
Today is a new day but it doesn't feel like one. I know exactly how it's going to go. I'll know exactly what to do at every checkpoint moment. This will be boring because everyone's so predictable. Talking about the same old thing. Bragging about the same old crap. Today will be a motion in my life until someone stirs it up... ya know, makes a move I didn't see coming. When that one person forgets about how they look and who they're seen with and realizes the great amount of care they can have toward another, that's when my day will be a good day... So probably lunch time, when I see KG and go crazy about her tricks on me, lol!!! I won't be able to predict any of that!
Sunday, November 16, 2003
The beach rocked! I loved Friday night on the pebble-beachy place at mid-night with KG Carl and Matthew. Just standing there with KG in my arms and the way the crash of the waves would glow in the moonlight. This, of all weekends, was as perfect as they get.
Thursday, November 13, 2003
KG IS MY GIRLFRIEND!!!
The other day, I was wondering where all my clothes had gone. I finally ran across my bag from my fishing trip like 2 months ago. So many warm things were in there. I washed them right up and hung 'em out to dry. It feels kinda like I just went out and bought 20 items of clothing, that's how long it's been.
So I finally ordered my Burton fleece, but they didn't have it in grey so I ordered it in green. It'll still be cool.
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
I'm back! But I think I'm only back because WE GOT A STORE BABY!!! Go to the official MY FRIEND MATTHEW store and buy buy buy!
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
Think back to the time you felt the best and remind yourself of the situation. I know where I belong right now and it feels so good to just know. Even though I can't always experience it, I know exactly what makes me the best me I can be. It's the best feeling in the world.
I'm so bored. Stop me before I watch Reloaded again.
I need a new picture don't ya think. It should be a recent one because I cut that hair off months ago. It shouldn't be so revealing either, I mean you can see my shoulders in that one. I'm gonna dress up and take a new one. Soon...
Monday, November 03, 2003
Today was so much more fun than I thought it would be. It seemed like everyone at school was either so bummed or even some people were just wanting attention from me when I just really wasn't wanting to give it to them. I appologise for that, but this is my day. So thanks again to my true buds. You guys really turned my day around. (my dad's yelling "OOOHH BABY!!!" at the tv) KG you rock my world and you know it's true! Soccer in the parking lot rocked.
I thought today was going to be horrible with everyone so sad about Dexter, but some people remembered me and came over this morning to wake me up. You guys are honestly the best. Thanks for my footies KG. I feel like I'm part of the team now. LOL. I heard you laughing in the kitchen before you guys came in my room. Your laugh is like none other! (seriously) I can't wait to go to lunch today. Thanks again guys, you turned my frown up-side-down. :)
Sunday, November 02, 2003
I bought Being John Malkovich yesterday. We watched it last night at Carl's. I dunno how much she liked it but KG sure did. lol. Then, tonight we listened to Carl read Huck Finn while we all snuggled in her big bed. I love being with you guys. You're all so real... *big smiles*
Wild Boys and VIVA LA BAM!!! It all starts tonight at 9 on Mtv!!!!
Hey people! I've lost my phone! Call me at home ok?! 732 6068
I'm not an adult, but I think I can say that this isn't the best life gets. I don't think we'll ever be able to judge how good life gets until the natural end of our own. Life gets better, especially if your a teenager in high school.
Saturday, November 01, 2003
Dexter, I dunno what to say. I want to be mad but I know that's unfair. I don't know why it had to be like this and I probably never will, but I miss you. I never knew how much you meant to me, but not just me, to everyone until today... Then again, you'll never know...
What's the best thing to eat right before a test? Well I dunno, so I'm just gonna keep on pigging on these here cookies. So even if that was the wrong food to eat, and I get a bad grade, I can at least tell everyone how good my cookies were that morning.
