my friend matthew
theme: once upon a time i was young and confused
Tuesday, September 30, 2003
Dude, they're making these EAP's now for amputees. ElectroActive Polymers. Like plastic muscles that are stimulated by electricity. They aren't motors or joints, but you could possibly implant one where your bicep would go, then wear a battery to power it. They're also producing an electricity generating shoe that will create and store electricity as you walk. This electricity can then be used to power the EAP muscle implant... Crazy man.
So people hate me. It's cool. I'm down.
I want to point out how caring I am, but I don't.
Monday, September 29, 2003
So this one time
I met this person who was real
She was the realest of the real
Real makes me feel good
Real people rock my world.
So K.G. ... ROCK THE WORLD'S WORLD!!!
yes yes, i changed my site... but more importanly, i just think that we should be adults about this. i mean, it wasn't me was it?
Sunday, September 28, 2003
Recently, I've been doing a lot of things alone. I walk alone, I only have myself to talk to most of the time, I laugh alone, I drive alone, I eat alone and worst of all, I cry alone.
I know that I wouldn't be alone if I wasn't such a jerk.
Saturday, September 27, 2003
Yeah, so I'm a jerk, but I'll get over it. Maybe I'll find some friends someday. I won't be a jerk in a while. But it's too late now. Anyway, ummm... I guess that all I can do is wait.
Thursday, September 25, 2003
Want to hear an amazing band. Go buy a CD by The Postal Service. I just listened a crazy song by them called Such Great Heights. Oh man, I seriously feel like a new person. This is weird. You can legally download it at VW's website. I know you're confused but just look around. It's worth it.
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
I need a focus.
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
The worst is when people tell you they care about your feelings, but then turn around and show you that they don't.
I think I'm a good person. Some people have things they don't even appreciate. They don't deserve them and treat them like crap. I recognise this and the situation would be much different if I were them.
Nothing to look forward to but Bible study tomorrow night. I hope everyone comes.
If it wasn't so hot outside, today would've been the perfect day.
The more you want something, the more it hurts to know you can't have it.
Monday, September 22, 2003
Now that someone's giving Matthew attention, he doesn't need me anymore.
KG rocks my world today.
There's no coming back
once you're exiled
into nothingness
it's the most empty feeling
I will ever feel.
I have hatred for all
there's enough for everyone
I want my way. I want everything to be perfect. I know I'm a brat, and no one cares, but that doesn't mean I don't want everything to be perfect.
I give up so much for what I love.
Sunday, September 21, 2003
I need to post more eh?
Wednesday, September 17, 2003
I am EAGLE SCOUT... Hear me ROAR!!!
Today is a big day.
Tuesday, September 16, 2003
Ok, so I've been a good kid lately. I do my homework and sort my priorities. I still feel unaccomplished and even worse, unwanted. I'm slowly becoming a loner and am not too happy about it. I hope to be truly happy soon.
Ok everybody this is on my Christmas list... Just to let you know. (Wink Wink)
Going to school early to do my math homework in the parkinglot. Does that sound lame or what? Well that's cuz it is.
You know what I learned this morning? The reason that electrical plugs have different sized prongs is for polarization. This means that if the only thing plugged in, in your house was a lamp without polarized plugs, the electricity still flows when the switch is turned off. But with polarized plugs, it allows the lamp to be "plugged in" without being on and no electricity flows. Less chance for fire or electric shock as well.
So now you know, and KNOWING is HALF the BATTLE!
OK... Took my medication WAY TOO LATE today. I don't feel like I can go to sleep man. It's also just been a really exciting day. Looking forward to tomorrow. Prayers are with Daniel and Adam.
Monday, September 15, 2003
My friends don't understand my hermit-like tendencies.
Saturday, September 13, 2003
I was asked to write an article for the Pioneer (high school news paper) I ended up doing it on sorting our priorities as students. My youth pastor and good friend Rudy Roberts taught us about that last Sunday. It was intriguing and I wanted to write my own opinions on the subject. So I'm really excited, even though it's not that amazing of an accomplishment. See y'all at the fair.
Friday, September 12, 2003
I feel like I'm on the side of EVERYONE's plates.
Thursday, September 11, 2003
Don't consider me... ever....
This is the first time in my life that everything's going "according to plan."
I shaved my face. It feels weird.
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
I think I'm amazingly good looking, no matter what anyone else says. You can't bring me down.
Most people aren't perfect. Some people are actually a little funny looking. Doesn't make them bad people, but then they feel like they have to put others down to make themselves feel prettier.
Those poor, sad, lonely people.
I went to sleep early last night. I hope it makes a difference in my mood. Sorry to everyone I was grumpy with yesterday. I ordered some hemp rainbows online last night. I can't wait 'till they come!
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
I still don't flirt. I don't even talk to most people. I'm a secret and I wish you knew that.
Monday, September 08, 2003
I don't flirt, and I'm a better person because of it.
Is it odd that I'd rather hide from people than talk to them? I mean, these people are decent and usually nice. I get more enjoyment from being without them because I know they want to be with me. So I know there's definitely something wrong with that, but the real question is: How do I fix it?
Sunday, September 07, 2003
What drives someone to bug someone else so much that they have to (blatantly) tell you that they "don't want to talk to you anymore"?
Friday, September 05, 2003
I'm back, and what did I learn?
1. Canada's the freakin' chillest place I've ever been.
1.5. Sooooo beautiful!
2. Old men can be pretty fun(ny)
3. Canadians make me so happy, I almost peed my pants whenever I was around them.
