my friend matthew

with every day that passes,
and we are not together
her need for me increases,
yet my need for will weather

i'm tired of working toward a goaless goal
and getting my hopes so high
something needs to progress soon
yet it won't, and i can't say why

she doesn't want my partnership
and the bond we used to have
i aimlessly beg her every day
for when we used to love and laugh

she gets to make the desicion
of when we reunite
yet she does not take into account
that my heart is losing the light

she says, "boy, soon"
"yet if you make ONE mistake"
"you'll be waiting much MUCH longer!"
it's with time my desire will shake

she grows toward me, as i grow away
and when i say, "it must be soon!"
she doesn't care, and she leaves me there
may i give up by this coming june

i have time to focus on her,
yet she does not focus on me
i have all my attention on my goal
while she relaxes on a boat in a sea

"do this, do that,
don't you ever do that again"
she tells me how to get her back
but i'll never see the end

it's boiling down, to the very last moments
we'll ever have again
unless she gives in, and trusts her love
like she once did, we will obtain-

-what we once had, together as one
like we had... when we had first begun